October 2010
“It does not do to dwell on dreams, and forget to live”
– Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore
Never Stay Grounded.
And i’ll live by those words.
I think I expect way too much from people. And that’s probably what screws me over most of the time, being applicable to many situations where I wasn’t sure what I did wrong. Yupp… It was all me.
Wow.
Haven’t felt this sh**ty is a while. Why am I surprised though? I can’t help but believe i’ve done this to myself. It’s that feeling that you get when you feel like you’re losing the ones you care for most. That you can’t do anything about it. They don’t care, they hardly speak to you…
God damn. Maybe it’s time to disappear again, though not...
There's a huge difference between living and just...
And i’ve been doing a little too much of the latter. Time to start living, as hard as that may be with my self destructive tendencies. It’s time to get past that though. To get past the meaningless paranoia, to stop worrying about everything and to NEVER worry about every meaningless person. If you have meaning, i will worry about you, only because you mean something to me, and...
You know what?
This is only the beginning. Trust me.
The future is starting to reveal itself to me. It’s starting to look brighter and brighter… And not the brighter head to the end of the tunnel light. I think it’s a good sign. I mean… I’m 19 years old, don’t even have a band yet, and already I have a record label supporting me when I do have a band! What more can I ask for...
To You:
This is why I stay away… Trust me, I wish I never met you cause I push away what I want most, and you don’t deserve it, no you really don’t. You mean so much more to me than you’ll ever know, but this is how I cope. Honestly, I wish it weren’t true, but if wishes were stars, we’d be living without a light. Please, forgive me. You don’t deserve this, tell...
Disasterpiece
I need to know you’re still there; Even the slightest notion of your existence is enough to keep me alive. Hope; don’t abandon me now, you’ve only just arrived, please stay! But the sparrow takes flight as she lands, only to realize i’m too late. To see everything i’ve worked for fall to ruins, a scar; remnants of a masterpiece, aching to sing it’s beautiful...
